Andrew’s Life 安德鲁的生命
ANDREW'S LIFE ： 安德鲁的生命 ： Āndélǔ de shēngmìng
This article is primarily meant for those of my online tutees who are learning Mandarin. The way to go about this is to follow the following steps: (1) Read the English, paragraph 1 to start; (2) Look at the Hanyu Pinyin in the next paragraph and try to pronounce the Mandarin translation - noting the intonations; (3) Go into ‘translategoogle’ and copy the paragraph into the English half of the screen and see the Mandarin words and more importantly the Hanyu Pinyin on the other half of the screen; (4) Listen to the Mandarin Language as pronounced by google using the voice icon; (5) Repeat after the Hangyu after Siri; (6) Repeat the above for the next English paragraph and continue on.
本文主要面向那些学习普通话的在线学生。解决这个问题的方法是遵循以下步骤：（1）阅读英文第1段开始; （2）在下一段中查看汉语拼音并尝试发音普通话 - 注意语调; （3）进入'translategoogle'并将段落复制到屏幕的英文半部分，并在屏幕的另一半看到普通话，更重要的是汉语拼音; （4）使用语音图标收听谷歌发音的普通话; （5）在Siri之后的Hangyu之后重复; （6）对下一个英文段重复上述步骤并继续。 Běnwén zhǔyào miànxiàng nàxiē xuéxí pǔtōnghuà de zàixiàn xuéshēng. Jiějué zhège wèntí de fāngfǎ shì zūnxún yǐxià bùzhòu:(1) Yuèdú yīngwén dì 1 duàn kāishǐ; (2) zàixià yīduàn zhōng chákàn hànyǔ pīnyīn bìng chángshì fāyīn pǔtōnghuà - zhùyì yǔdiào; (3) jìnrù'translategoogle'bìng jiāng duànluò fùzhì dào píngmù de yīngwén bàn bùfèn, bìng zài píngmù de lìng yībàn kàn dào pǔtōnghuà, gèng zhòngyào de shì hànyǔ pīnyīn; (4) shǐyòng yǔyīn túbiāo shōutīng gǔgē fāyīn de pǔtōnghuà; (5) zài Siri zhīhòu de Hangyu zhīhòu chóngfù; (6) duì xià yīgè yīngwén duàn chóngfù shàngshù bùzhòu bìng jìxù.
“I’m 32 and I’m dying,” Andrew said before he passed away.
“我才32岁，我快死了，”安德鲁在去世前说道。 “Wǒ cái 32 suì, wǒ kuài sǐle,” āndélǔ zài qùshì qián shuōdao.
God works at another level way above our heads. We simply cannot understand Him as He has his plans for all of us. It would just be like you being transformed into one of those fishes in your aquarium tank and you were trying to explain to your fellow fishes that another world, called the humankind existed outside our water tank without gills and without the need of water to live. Would your other fishy friends believe you? This is Andrew’s unabridged story below: https://ymi.today/2019/08/andrew-hui-im-32-and-im-dying/
上帝在另一个层面上工作。我们根本无法理解他，因为他对我们所有人都有他的计划。这就像你被改造成水族箱中的其中一条鱼一样，你试图向你的同伴解释另一个世界，称为人类，我们的水箱外面没有鳃，也没有水的生存。你的其他可疑的朋友会相信你吗？这是安德鲁未完整的故事：https：//ymi.today/2019/08/andrew-hui-im-32-and-im-dying/ Shàngdì zài lìng yīgè céngmiàn shàng gōngzuò. Wǒmen gēnběn wúfǎ lǐjiě tā, yīnwèi tā duì wǒmen suǒyǒu rén dōu yǒu tā de jìhuà. Zhè jiù xiàng nǐ bèi gǎizào chéng shuǐzú xiāng zhōng de qízhōng yītiáo yú yīyàng, nǐ shìtú xiàng nǐ de tóngbàn jiěshì lìng yīgè shìjiè, chēng wéi rénlèi, wǒmen de shuǐxiāng wàimiàn méiyǒu sāi, yě méiyǒu shuǐ de shēngcún. Nǐ de qítā kěyí de péngyǒu huì xiāngxìn nǐ ma? Zhè shì āndélǔ wèi wánzhěng de gùshì:Https://Ymi.Today/2019/08/andrew-hui-im-32-and-im-dying/
This story is published here in full for all to read and, if you are moved by the power of God, please pass this article on.
这个故事在这里全文发表供所有人阅读，如果你被上帝的力量所感动，请把这篇文章再发出给你的朋友们。 Zhège gùshì zài zhèlǐ quánwén fābiǎo gōng suǒyǒu rén yuèdú, rúguǒ nǐ bèi shàngdì de lìliàng suǒ gǎndòng, Qǐng bǎ zhè piān wénzhāng zài fāchū gěi nǐ de péngyǒumen.
Editor’s Note: Andrew passed away peacefully at 11:25 p.m. (Singapore time) on 31 August 2019. Our thoughts and prayers are with his family and friends.
编者注：安德鲁于晚上11点25分平安地去世。 （新加坡时间）2019年8月31日。我们的思想和祈祷与他的家人和朋友在一起。 Biānzhě zhù: Āndélǔ yú wǎnshàng 11 diǎn 25 fēn píng'ān dì qùshì.(Xīnjiāpō shíjiān)2019 nián 8 yuè 31 rì. Wǒmen de sīxiǎng hé qídǎo yǔ tā de jiārén hé péngyǒu zài yīqǐ。
Images By Andrew Hui
Written By Janice Tai, Singapore
At 32, Andrew Hui now has an estimated two to three months left to live.
32岁的安德鲁·惠现在估计还有两到三个月的生活。 32 Suì de āndélǔ·huì xiànzài gūjì hái yǒu liǎng dào sān gè yuè de shēnghuó.
His latest treatment option of radiation was ceased a month ago after it was deemed no longer effective in controlling the spread of the cancer cells in his body. Since then, the tumor has been growing rapidly, and the lymphoma has spread to almost every critical organ and is pressing against important blood vessels.
一个月前，他被认为不再有效控制癌细胞在体内的传播，因此他的最新治疗方案已停止使用。从那以后，肿瘤一直在快速增长，淋巴瘤已经扩散到几乎每个关键器官并且压迫重要的血管。 Yīgè yuè qián, tā bèi rènwéi bù zài yǒuxiào kòngzhì ái xìbāo zài tǐnèi de chuánbò, yīncǐ tā de zuìxīn zhìliáo fāng'àn yǐ tíngzhǐ shǐyòng. Cóng nà yǐhòu, zhǒngliú yīzhí zài kuàisù zēngzhǎng, línbā liú yǐjīng kuòsàn dào jīhū měi gè guānjiàn qìguān bìngqiě yāpò zhòngyào de xiěguǎn.
Despite having just a month or so left where he would still be conscious and lucid, Andrew enthusiastically made time for this interview at the hospital before being discharged back home to be made comfortable on palliative care as death looms.
尽管只剩下一个月左右的时间，他仍然有意识和清醒，安德鲁热情地抽出时间在医院进行这次采访，然后出院回家，以便在死亡迫在眉睫的姑息治疗方面感到舒服 Jǐnguǎn zhǐ shèng xià yīgè yuè zuǒyòu de shíjiān, tā réngrán yǒuyìshí hé qīngxǐng, āndélǔ rèqíng de chōuchū shíjiān zài yīyuàn jìnxíng zhè cì cǎifǎng, ránhòu chūyuàn huí jiā, yǐbiàn zài sǐwáng pòzàiméijié de gūxí zhìliáo fāngmiàn gǎndào shūfú.
“I want to encourage people to trust in God during the darkest points of their lives,” he said.
他说:“我希望鼓励人们在生命中最黑暗的时刻相信上帝.” Tā shuō: “Wǒ xīwàng gǔlì rénmen zài shēngmìng zhòng zuì hēi'àn de shíkè xiāngxìn shàngdì.”
A Shocking Discovery 令人震惊的发现 Lìng rén zhènjīng de fǎ xiàn
Andrew hadn’t always viewed his condition this way. It took months of wrestling before he was able to reach this stage of peace and acceptance towards his prognosis—which came as a bolt from the blue last June.
安德鲁并不总是这样看待他的病情。在他能够达到这个和平阶段并接受他的预测之前，花了几个月的摔跤 - 这是去年六月的一次突破。 Āndélǔ bìng bù zǒng shì zhèyàng kàndài tā de bìngqíng. Zài tā nénggòu dádào zhège hépíng jiēduàn bìng jiēshòu tā de yùcè zhīqián, huāle jǐ gè yuè de shuāijiāo - zhè shì qùnián liù yuè de yīcì túpò.
Doctors had found out about cancer in his body during a visit Andrew had made to the hospital’s emergency department one night because he was running a high fever. X-ray tests showed signs of tumor growth in the upper part of his chest. Further biopsy tests identified it as Stage 1 Aggressive Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma.
在安德鲁一天晚上去医院急诊室就诊时，医生已经发现了他体内的癌症，因为他正在高烧。 X射线检查显示胸部上部有肿瘤生长迹象。进一步的活检测试将其确定为第1阶段侵袭性非霍奇金淋巴瘤。 Zài āndélǔ yītiān wǎnshàng qù yīyuàn jízhěn shì jiùzhěn shí, yīshēng yǐjīng fāxiànle tā tǐnèi de áizhèng, yīnwèi tā zhèngzài gāoshāo. X shèxiàn jiǎnchá xiǎnshì xiōngbù shàngbù yǒu zhǒngliú shēngzhǎng jīxiàng. Jìnyībù de huójiǎn cèshì jiāng qí quèdìng wèi dì 1 jiēduàn qīnxí xìng fēi huò qí jīn línbā liú.
So Andrew put his hope in probability and medical science, presuming that his treatment would be like a few months of “holiday”, and confident that he would recover soon enough.
所以安德鲁把他的希望寄托在概率和医学科学上，假设他的待遇就像是几个月的“假期”，并且相信他很快就会康复。 Suǒyǐ āndélǔ bǎ tā de xīwàng jìtuō zài gàilǜ hé yīxué kēxué shàng, jiǎshè tā de dàiyù jiù xiàng shì jǐ gè yuè de “jiàqī”, bìngqiě xiāngxìn tā hěn kuài jiù huì kāngfù.
But he was in the 10 per cent.
但他的比例为10％。 Dàn tā de bǐlì wèi 10%.
Yet, doctors were confident that his was not a complicated case and had even told him that 90 per cent of people who had this cancer at this stage have been cured.
然而，医生们确信他不是一个复杂的病例，甚至告诉他，在这个阶段有90％的患有这种癌症的人已经治愈了。 Rán'ér, yīshēngmen quèxìn tā bùshì yīgè fùzá de bìnglì, shènzhì gàosù tā, zài zhège jiēduàn yǒu 90%de huàn yǒu zhè zhǒng áizhèng de rén yǐjīng zhìyùle.
Undergoing six rounds of R-EPOCH therapy, a form of chemotherapy did not help him.
接受六轮R-EPOCH治疗，一种化疗，对他没有帮助。 Jiēshòu liùlún R-EPOCH zhìliáo, yī zhǒng huàliáo, duì tā méiyǒu bāngzhù.
So doctors gunned for a stronger form of chemo—RICE therapy. This time, they said, some 70 to 80 per cent would successfully have their cancer treated by it.
因此，医生们开始采取更强大的化疗方式。他们说，这一次，大约有70％到80％的人会成功治疗癌症。 Yīncǐ, yīshēngmen kāishǐ cǎiqǔ gèng qiángdà de huàliáo fāngshì. Tāmen shuō, zhè yīcì, dàyuē yǒu 70%dào 80%de rén huì chénggōng zhìliáo áizhèng.
Again, he went for four rounds of treatment but was found to be in the 20 to 30 per cent of people for whom this treatment did not work.
他再次进行了四轮治疗，但发现这种治疗无法治愈的20％至30％的患者。 Tā zàicì jìnxíngle sì lún zhìliáo, dàn fāxiàn zhè zhǒng zhìliáo wúfǎ zhìyù de 20%zhì 30%de huànzhě
He was next put on immunotherapy which was deemed to be suitable for 99 per cent of patients.
他接下来接受了免疫治疗，被认为适合99％的患者。 Tā jiē xiàlái jiēshòule miǎnyì zhìliáo, bèi rènwéi shìhé 99%de huànzhě.
Andrew, however, once again found himself in the one percent deemed unsuitable for the treatment due to the severe side effects that emerged.
然而，由于出现了严重的副作用，安德鲁再次发现自己被认为不适合治疗。 Rán'ér, yóuyú chūxiànle yánzhòng de fùzuòyòng, āndélǔ zàicì fāxiàn zìjǐ bèi rènwéi bù shìhé zhìliáo.
“This is as straightforward a message you could get from God, don’t you think so?” Andrew said matter-of-factly, with a laugh and a glint in his eye.
“你可以从上帝那里得到一个直截了当的信息，难道你不这么认为吗？”安德鲁实事求是地说，他的眼中带着笑声和闪光。 “Nǐ kěyǐ cóng shàngdì nàlǐ dédào yīgè zhíjiéliǎodāng de xìnxī, nándào nǐ bù zhème rènwéi ma?” Āndélǔ shíshìqiúshì de shuō, tā de yǎnzhōng dàizhe xiào shēng hé shǎnguāng.
“I had placed my faith in medical science and when that failed, He has shown me I need to drastically change my perspective and fall back on Him totally,” he added.
“我把自己的信仰放在医学科学上，当失败时，他向我展示了我需要彻底改变自己的观点并完全依靠他，” 他补充说。 “Wǒ bǎ zìjǐ de xìnyǎng fàng zài yīxué kēxué shàng, dāng shībài shí, tā xiàng wǒ zhǎnshìle wǒ xūyào chèdǐ gǎibiàn zìjǐ de guāndiǎn bìng wánquán yīkào tā,” tā bǔchōng shuō.
A Time of Questioning 提问时间 Tíwèn shíjiān
Despite being a believer from young and one who actively served in church as a musician and leader, Andrew wrestled with God over his sickness earlier this year.
尽管安德鲁是年轻人的信徒，并且是一位积极在教堂担任音乐家和领导者的人，但今年早些时候，安德鲁还在与他的疾病搏斗。 Jǐnguǎn āndélǔ shì niánqīng rén de xìntú, bìngqiě shì yī wèi jījí zài jiàotáng dānrèn yīnyuè jiā hé lǐngdǎo zhě de rén, dàn jīnnián zǎo xiē shíhòu, āndélǔ hái zài yǔ tā de jíbìng bódòu.
Why me? 为什么是我呢？ Wèishéme shì wǒ?
Andrew was not one who was careless with his diet or lifestyle.
安德鲁不是一个对他的饮食或生活方式粗心大意的人。 Āndélǔ bùshì yīgè duì tā de yǐnshí huò shēnghuó fāngshì cūxīn dàyì de rén.
The young banker did not drink or smoke. Instead, he would have salads for lunch five days a week and frequently head to the gym after work.
年轻的银行家不喝酒或吸烟。相反，他每周五天都要吃沙拉午餐，下班后经常去健身房。 Niánqīng de yínháng jiā bù hējiǔ huò xīyān. Xiāngfǎn, tā měi zhōuwǔtiān dū yào chī shālā wǔcān, xiàbān hòu jīngcháng qù jiànshēnfáng.
Why now? 为什么现在？ Wèishéme xiànzài?
His questions to God piled up thick and fast. “I have barely fulfilled 10 percent of my dreams and I thought you would be able to use me to a greater extent. I have been serving in the church for 20 years and this is the way I am to go? This is how you tell the world that you care for your servant?”
他对上帝的问题厚厚而快速地堆积起来。 “我几乎没有完成10％的梦想，我认为你可以在更大程度上使用我。我在教堂服务了20年，这就是我要走的路？这就是你如何告诉全世界你关心你的仆人？“ Tā duì shàngdì de wèntí hòu hòu ér kuàisù dì duījī qǐlái. “Wǒ jīhū méiyǒu wánchéng 10%de mèngxiǎng, wǒ rènwéi nǐ kěyǐ zài gèng dà chéngdù shàng shǐyòng wǒ. Wǒ zài jiàotáng fúwùle 20 nián, zhè jiùshì wǒ yào zǒu de lù? Zhè jiùshì nǐ rúhé gàosù quán shìjiè nǐ guānxīn nǐ de púrén?“
In his anger and disappointment with God, Andrew also lashed out at other Christians.
在对上帝的愤怒和失望中，安德鲁也抨击其他基督徒。 Zài duì shàngdì de fènnù hé shīwàng zhōng, āndélǔ yě pēngjí qítā jīdū tú.
“They proclaimed or declared healing on me as they believed that by His stripes, God has carried our pain and bore it all (Isaiah 53:5). But I can’t reconcile it with the fact that I am not only not healed but also getting worse. It gave me false hope. So I scolded them and shut them out,” said Andrew.
“他们宣称或宣布医治我，因为他们相信通过他的条纹，上帝已经承受了我们的痛苦并承担了一切（以赛亚书53：5）。但是我不能同意这样的事实，即我不仅没有愈合，而且还会变得更糟。它给了我虚假的希望。所以我责骂他们并把他们关了，“安德鲁说。 “Tāmen xuānchēng huò xuānbù yīzhì wǒ, yīnwèi tāmen xiāngxìn tōngguò tā de tiáowén, shàngdì yǐjīng chéngshòule wǒmen de tòngkǔ bìng chéngdānle yīqiè (yǐ sài yà shū 53:5). Dànshì wǒ bùnéng tóngyì zhèyàng de shìshí, jí wǒ bùjǐn méiyǒu yùhé, érqiě hái huì biàn dé gèng zāo. Tā gěile wǒ xūjiǎ de xīwàng. Suǒyǐ wǒ zémà tāmen bìng bǎ tāmen guānle,“āndélǔ shuō.
“The way I see it, if He chooses to heal me, then his task for me on earth is not done. If I am not healed, then it is time for me to go home, so either way, it is a win-win situation.”
“我看到它的方式，如果他选择医治我，那么他在地球上的任务就没有完成。如果我没有痊愈，那么现在是我回家的时候了，无论哪种方式，这都是一个双赢的局面。“ “Wǒ kàn dào tā de fāngshì, rúguǒ tā xuǎnzé yīzhì wǒ, nàme tā zài dìqiú shàng de rènwù jiù méiyǒu wánchéng. Rúguǒ wǒ méiyǒu quányù, nàme xiànzài shì wǒ huí jiā de shíhòule, wúlùn nǎ zhǒng fāngshì, zhè dōu shì yīgè shuāngyíng de júmiàn.“
Part of Andrew’s struggle and despair also stemmed from the fact that he was in a lot of pain.
安德鲁的斗争和绝望的一部分也源于他经历了很多痛苦的事实。 Āndélǔ de dòuzhēng hé juéwàng de yībùfèn yě yuán yú tā jīnglìle hěnduō tòngkǔ de shìshí.
He had to deal with nausea, lethargy, and hair loss, and many a time he would throw up so violently that his stomach contents would hit the wall.
他不得不面对恶心，嗜睡和脱发，很多时候他会猛烈地呕吐，以至于胃内容物会撞到墙上 Tā bùdé bù miàn duì ěxīn, shìshuì hé tuōfà, hěnduō shíhòu tā huì měngliè de ǒutù, yǐ zhìyú wèi nèiróng wù huì zhuàng dào qiáng shàng.
Bad coughing fits would leave him curling up into a ball on his bed and his heart would shatter whenever he saw his mother crying by his bedside.
不好的咳嗽会使他在床上蜷缩成一个球，每当他看到母亲在他的床边哭泣时，他的心就会破碎。 Bù hǎo de késòu huì shǐ tā zài chuángshàng quánsuō chéng yīgè qiú, měi dāng tā kàn dào mǔqīn zài tā de chuáng biān kūqì shí, tā de xīn jiù huì pòsuì.
A Turning Point 转折点 Zhuǎnzhédiǎn
However, a profound sense of peace and acceptance of death came when Andrew’s view of God shifted.
然而，当安德鲁对上帝的看法发生转变时，就会产生深刻的和平感和对死亡的接受。 Rán'ér, dāng āndélǔ duì shàngdì de kànfǎ fāshēng zhuǎnbiàn shí, jiù huì chǎnshēng shēnkè de hépíng gǎn hé duì sǐwáng de jiēshòu.
“I have always viewed His sovereignty over my life as something that can’t be questioned. He can do as He likes and pleases, and we have no right to ask for, say
“我一直认为他对我生命的主权是不可质疑的。他可以随心所欲地做，除非他给予，否则我们没有权利要求，赞成。我看到他的主权是明智的，高尚而强大的，“安德鲁说。 “Wǒ yīzhí rènwéi tā duì wǒ shēngmìng de zhǔquán shì bùkě zhíyí de. Tā kěyǐ suíxīnsuǒyù de zuò, chúfēi tā jǐyǔ, fǒuzé wǒmen méiyǒu quánlì yāoqiú, zànchéng. Wǒ kàn dào tā de zhǔquán shì míngzhì de, gāoshàng ér qiángdà de,“āndélǔ shuō.
“But later I realized that the way He expresses His sovereignty is through love. What is happening to me may not be good but He is good and His sovereignty is seen in how He carries me through the storms in life,” he added.
“但后来我意识到他表达主权的方式是通过爱。发生在我身上的事情可能并不好，但他很善良，他的主权在于他如何带领我度过生命中的风暴，“他补充道。 “Dàn hòulái wǒ yìshí dào tā biǎodá zhǔquán de fāngshì shì tōngguò ài. Fāshēng zài wǒ shēnshang de shìqíng kěnéng bìng bù hǎo, dàn tā hěn shànliáng, tā de zhǔquán zàiyú tā rúhé dàilǐng wǒ dùguò shēngmìng zhòng de fēngbào,“tā bǔchōng dào.
One of the verses that have helped Andrew arrive at this understanding is Ephesians 3:17-18, which says, “And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God”
其中一个帮助安德鲁达到这种理解的经文是以弗所书3：17-18，其中说：“我祈求你，在爱中扎根并建立起来，可以与所有主的圣民一起拥有权力，要掌握基督的爱是多么宽阔，多远和高深，并且要知道这种超越知识的爱 - 你可能被充满了上帝所有丰满的尺度 “Qízhōng yīgè bāngzhù āndélǔ dádào zhè zhǒng lǐjiě de jīng wén shì yǐ fú suǒ shū 3:17-18, Qízhōng shuō:“Wǒ qíqiú nǐ, zài ài zhōng zhágēn bìng jiànlì qǐlái, kěyǐ yǔ suǒyǒu zhǔ de shèng mín yīqǐ yǒngyǒu quánlì, yào zhǎngwò jīdū de ài shì duōme kuānkuò, duō yuǎn hé gāoshēn, bìngqiě yào zhīdào zhè zhǒng chāoyuè zhīshì de ài - nǐ kěnéng bèi chōngmǎnle shàngdì suǒyǒu fēngmǎn de chǐdù “
His trust in God’s love and sovereignty has cast out any fear he used to have in facing his mortality.“I have zero fear of death now. When I close my eyes for the last time, I am more certain about being with Him than I can have in boarding a plane and being assured of reaching my destination,” said Andrew, who worships at St. Matthew’s church.“I have zero fear of death now. When I close my eyes for the last time, I am more certain about being with Him than I can have in boarding a plane and being assured of reaching my destination,” said Andrew, who worships at St. Matthew’s church.
他对上帝的爱和主权的信任已经消除了他过去常常面对死亡的恐惧。“我现在对死亡一无所知。当我最后一次闭上眼睛时，我更加确定与他在一起，而不是登上飞机并确保到达我的目的地，“安德鲁说，他在圣马太教堂敬拜。”我没有现在害怕死亡。当我最后一次闭上眼睛时，我更加确定与他在一起，而不是在登机和确保到达我的目的地时，“安德鲁说，他在圣马太教堂敬拜。 Tā duì shàngdì de ài hé zhǔquán de xìnrèn yǐjīng xiāochúle tā guòqù chángcháng miàn duì sǐwáng de kǒngjù.“Wǒ xiànzài duì sǐwáng yī wú suǒ zhī. Dāng wǒ zuìhòu yīcì bì shàng yǎnjīng shí, wǒ gèngjiā quèdìng yǔ tā zài yīqǐ, ér bùshì dēng shàng fēijī bìng quèbǎo dàodá wǒ de mùdì de,“āndélǔ shuō, tā zài shèng mǎ tài jiàotáng jìng bài.” Wǒ méiyǒu xiànzài hàipà sǐwáng. Dāng wǒ zuìhòu yīcì bì shàng yǎnjīng shí, wǒ gèngjiā quèdìng yǔ tā zài yīqǐ, ér bùshì zài dēng jī hé quèbǎo dàodá wǒ de mùdì dì shí,“āndélǔ shuō, tā zài shèng mǎ tài jiàotáng jìng bài.
“That is the certainty I cling on to. Without that, if God or Jesus didn’t exist, I would have committed suicide because then all my hope is gone and there is no point or meaning to life,” he added.
“这是我坚持的确定性。如果没有这个，如果上帝或耶稣不存在，我就会自杀，因为那时我所有的希望都消失了，生命没有任何意义或意义，“他补充道。 “Zhè shì wǒ jiānchí dí quèdìng xìng. Rúguǒ méiyǒu zhège, rúguǒ shàngdì huò yēsū bù cúnzài, wǒ jiù huì zìshā, yīnwèi nà shí wǒ suǒyǒu de xīwàng dū xiāoshīle, shēngmìng méiyǒu rènhé yìyì huò yìyì,“tā bǔchōng dào.
He is also immensely grateful for having a church family who fasted, prayed, and cried with him throughout his period of illness. Many volunteered to buy food for him or to drive him to and from his home and the hospital.
他非常感激有一个教会家庭在整个疾病期间都禁食，祈祷和哭泣。许多人自愿为他买食物或开车往返他家和医院。Tā fēicháng gǎnjī yǒu yīgè jiàohuì jiātíng zài zhěnggè jíbìng qíjiān dōu jìn shí, qídǎo hé kūqì. Xǔduō rén zìyuàn wéi tā mǎi shíwù huò kāichē wǎngfǎn tā jiā hé yīyuàn.
A Dying to Self
死于自我 Sǐ yú zìwǒ Though Andrew was born into a Christian family and grew up in church, he only truly “came to faith” or owned his faith when he was 16.
虽然安德鲁出生在一个基督徒家庭，并在教堂长大，但他才真正“信仰”或在16岁时拥有自己的信仰。Suīrán āndélǔ chūshēng zài yīgè jīdū tú jiātíng, bìng zài jiàotáng cháng dà, dàn tā cái zhēnzhèng “xìnyǎng” huò zài 16 suì shí yǒngyǒu zìjǐ de xìnyǎng.
He was in a Boys’ Brigade service in chapel one day and the lyrics of the song “So You Would Come” touched him immensely:
有一天，他在小教堂的一个男孩旅服务中，歌曲“So You Would Come”的歌词极大地触动了他： Yǒu yītiān, tā zài xiǎo jiàotáng de yīgè nánhái lǚ fúwù zhōng, gēqǔ “So You Would Come” de gēcí jí dàdì chùdòngle tā:
Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you’ve done
Could make Him close the door
你什么都做不了 可以让他更爱你 没有你做过的事 可以让他关上门 Nǐ shénme dōu zuò bùliǎo kěyǐ ràng tā gèng ài nǐ méiyǒu nǐ zuòguò de shì kěyǐ ràng tā guān shàngmén
These words pierced Andrew’s heart as he used to throw himself into doing good works or serving in church to try to atone for his sins.
这些话刺穿了安德鲁的心脏，因为他曾经把自己投入做好事或在教堂里服务，试图为自己的罪赎罪。Zhèxiē huà cì chuānle āndélǔ de xīnzàng, yīnwèi tā céngjīng bǎ zìjǐ tóurù zuò hǎoshì huò zài jiàotáng lǐ fúwù, shìtú wèi zìjǐ de zuì shúzuì.
The Hymn ‘So You Would Come’ https://youtu.be/VVh96S7Fd40
The lyrics of the song gave Andrew a sense of freedom as he began to realize that God loves him and that he did not need to do anything to earn it. It also gave him the hope that despite his sins, God will never close the door on him.
这首歌的歌词给了安德鲁一种自由的感觉，因为他开始意识到上帝爱他并且他不需要做任何事来赚钱。它也给了他希望，尽管他的罪过，上帝永远不会关上他的门。 Zhè shǒu gē de gēcí gěile āndélǔ yī zhǒng zìyóu de gǎnjué, yīnwèi tā kāishǐ yìshí dào shàngdì ài tā bìngqiě tā bù xūyào zuò rènhé shì lái zhuànqián. Tā yě gěile tā xīwàng, jǐnguǎn tā de zuìguo, shàngdì yǒngyuǎn bù huì guānshàng tā de mén.
But the journey since then hadn’t always been smooth-sailing.
但从那以后的旅程并不总是顺利航行。 Dàn cóng nà yǐhòu de lǚchéng bìng bù zǒng shì shùnlì hángxíng.
Another version of the same hymn with a background story in the Cantonese Language: https://youtu.be/suyNsXAOdLA
Though he majored in communications and media studies, he joined the banking sector after graduation as it was more financially lucrative.
虽然他主修传播和媒体研究，但他毕业后加入银行业，因为它在经济上更有利可图。 Suīrán tā zhǔ xiū chuánbò hé méitǐ yánjiū, dàn tā bìyè hòu jiārù yínháng yè, yīnwèi tā zài jīngjì shàng gèng yǒulì kě tú.
The number-crunching did not interest or excite him, but he had put money above fulfillment. Then as he loved to travel to experience different cultures and food. He also wanted to support the church by funding its missions work.
数字运算对他没有兴趣或激动，但他把钱放在履行之上，因为他喜欢去旅行体验不同的文化和食物。他还希望通过资助其任务工作来支持教会 Shùzì yùnsuàn duì tā méiyǒu xìngqù huò jīdòng, dàn tā bǎ qián fàng zài lǚxíng zhī shàng, yīnwèi tā xǐhuān qù lǚxíng tǐyàn bùtóng de wénhuà hé shíwù. Tā hái xīwàng tōngguò zīzhù qí rènwù gōngzuò lái zhīchí jiàohuì.
So Andrew worked long hours to climb up the corporate ladder and 12-hour workdays were the norm. His last position was as a manager in private banking.
因此安德鲁长时间工作以爬上公司阶梯，12小时的工作日是常态。他的最后一个职位是私人银行经理。Yīncǐ āndélǔ cháng shíjiān gōngzuò yǐ pá shàng gōngsī jiētī,12 xiǎoshí de gōngzuò rì shì chángtài. Tā de zuìhòu yīgè zhíwèi shì sīrén yínháng jīnglǐ.
But what he learned at the age of 16 never completely left him. The peace that comes with being convicted of God’s full acceptance and love for him, said Andrew, is the same peace that guards his heart now that he faces a larger battle of faith in confronting death.
但他在16岁时学到的东西从未完全离开过他。安德鲁说，上帝完全接受和爱他所带来的平安就是同样的平安，他现在面对一场更大的信仰对抗死亡的斗争，这是他的心。 Dàn tā zài 16 suì shí xué dào de dōngxī cóng wèi wánquán líkāiguò tā. Āndélǔ shuō, shàngdì wánquán jiēshòu hé ài tā suǒ dài lái de píng'ān jiùshì tóngyàng de píng'ān, tā xiànzài miàn duì yī chǎng gèng dà de xìnyǎng duìkàng sǐwáng de dòuzhēng, zhè shì tā de xīn.
A Blessing Through Faith
通过信仰的祝福。 Tōngguò xìnyǎng de zhùfú.
Besides having the assurance of peace and knowing that he will meet Jesus in heaven after he dies, Andrew said his faith also makes a difference in mitigating his present pain.
安德鲁除了得到了和平的保证，并且知道在他去世后他将在天堂遇见耶稣，他说他的信仰也能减轻他目前的痛苦。 Āndélǔ chú liǎo dédàole hépíng de bǎozhèng, bìngqiě zhīdào zài tā qùshì hòu tā jiàng zài tiāntáng yùjiàn yēsū, tā shuō tā de xìnyǎng yě néng jiǎnqīng tā mùqián de tòngkǔ.
“When I call out to him for help at night because of the pain, I find that the pain lessens when I focus on God and I will fall into deep sleep after that,” said Andrew.
“当我因为疼痛而在晚上呼唤他寻求帮助时，我发现当我专注于上帝时疼痛就会减轻，之后我会陷入沉睡，”安德鲁说。 “Dāng wǒ yīnwèi téngtòng ér zài wǎnshàng hūhuàn tā xúnqiú bāngzhù shí, wǒ fāxiàn dāng wǒ zhuānzhù yú shàngdì shí téngtòng jiù huì jiǎnqīng, zhīhòu wǒ huì xiànrù chénshuì,” āndélǔ shuō.
Andrew’s faith has also enabled him to see the blessings that have arisen out of his illness, such as being able to know when he is going to die, and to be able to die without pain.
安德鲁的信仰也使他能够看到他的疾病所带来的祝福，比如能够知道他什么时候会死，并且能够在没有痛苦的情况下死去。 Āndélǔ de xìnyǎng yě shǐ tā nénggòu kàn dào tā de jíbìng suǒ dài lái de zhùfú, bǐrú nénggòu zhīdào tā shénme shíhòu huì sǐ, bìngqiě nénggòu zài méiyǒu tòngkǔ de qíngkuàng xià sǐqù.
“This is so that I can prepare for death and say what I need to say and do what I need to do.
“这样我就可以为死亡做准备并说出我需要说什么，做我需要做的事情。 “Zhèyàng wǒ jiù kěyǐ wéi sǐwáng zuò zhǔnbèi bìng shuō chū wǒ xūyào shuō shénme, zuò wǒ xūyào zuò de shìqíng.
The pain medication and palliative care also enables me to be comfortable and die with a smile on my face,” he said.
疼痛药和姑息治疗也让我感到舒服，脸上露出笑容，“他说。 Téngtòng yào hé gūxí zhìliáo yě ràng wǒ gǎndào shūfú, liǎn shàng lùchū xiàoróng,“tā shuō.
Lately he has been able to talk to his parents about topics such as what they would be doing when he is gone and what they would use his room for.
最近，他已经能够与他的父母讨论一些话题，例如他们离开时他们会做什么，以及他们将如何利用他的房间。 Zuìjìn, tā yǐjīng nénggòu yǔ tā de fùmǔ tǎolùn yīxiē huàtí, lìrú tāmen líkāi shí tāmen huì zuò shénme, yǐjí tāmen jiàng rúhé lìyòng tā de fángjiān.
“It is a blessing to be able to have such conversations because then there will be closure for them as well,” said Andrew, who is preparing a “death box” that contains all his farewell messages to his loved ones and friends.
“能够进行这样的谈话是一件幸事，因为那时他们也会关闭，”安德鲁说，他正在准备一个“死亡盒子”，其中包含他向亲人和朋友传达的所有告别信息。 “Nénggòu jìnxíng zhèyàng de tánhuà shì yī jiàn xìngshì, yīnwèi nà shí tāmen yě huì guānbì,” āndélǔ shuō, tā zhèngzài zhǔnbèi yīgè “sǐwáng hézi”, qízhōng bāohán tā xiàng qīnrén hé péngyǒu chuándá de suǒyǒu gàobié xìnxī.
“I don’t believe in having sad funerals. I want mine to be happy and I also want to have a gathering now when I am around to thank and affirm people who are important to me and enjoy good food together,” said Andrew, who enjoys cooking, and used to cook anything from kaya to sambal to mooncakes for church fundraisers.
“我不相信有悲伤的葬礼。我希望我的幸福快乐，我现在也想聚会，感谢并肯定那些对我很重要并且一起享用美食的人，“安德鲁说，他喜欢做饭，过去常常从卡亚做饭to sambal to mooncakes为教堂筹款活动。 “Wǒ bù xiāngxìn yǒu bēishāng de zànglǐ. Wǒ xīwàng wǒ de xìngfú kuàilè, wǒ xiànzài yě xiǎng jùhuì, gǎnxiè bìng kěndìng nàxiē duì wǒ hěn zhòngyào bìngqiě yīqǐ xiǎngyòng měishí de rén,“āndélǔ shuō, tā xǐhuān zuò fàn, guòqù chángcháng cóng kǎ yà zuò fàn to sambal to mooncakes wèi jiàotáng chóu kuǎn huódòng.
These days, he finds himself not really thinking about death, but about “short-term” things such as his craving for tulang, or bone marrow soup.
Zhèxiē tiān, tā fāxiàn zìjǐ bìng méiyǒu zhēnzhèng xiǎngdào sǐwáng, ér shì guānyú “duǎnqí” de shìqíng, bǐrú tā duì tulang huò gǔsuǐ tāng de kěwàng.
One unrealized dream he has is to set up a soup kitchen with his two close friends for migrant workers or anyone who needs a meal.
这些天，他发现自己并没有真正想到死亡，而是关于“短期”的事情，比如他对tulang或骨髓汤的渴望Zhèxiē tiān, tā fāxiàn zìjǐ bìng méiyǒu zhēnzhèng xiǎngdào sǐwáng, ér shì guānyú “duǎnqí” de shìqíng, bǐrú tā duì tulang huò gǔsuǐ tāng de kěwàng.
“If I were to live my life again, I think the only part I would change is perhaps going into social service because that may bring more of a difference to the lives of others. But then again, I don’t know. I am who I am today because of all the moments in the past that shaped me,” said Andrew, who has a father with polio.
“如果我再次过上自己的生活，我认为我改变的唯一部分可能是进入社会服务，因为这可能会给其他人的生活带来更多的不同。但话说回来，我不知道。我是我今天的人，因为过去的所有时刻都塑造了我，“安德鲁说，他有一个脊髓灰质炎的父亲。 “Rúguǒ wǒ zàicìguò shàng zìjǐ de shēnghuó, wǒ rènwéi wǒ gǎibiàn de wéiyī bùfèn kěnéng shì jìnrù shèhuì fúwù, yīnwèi zhè kěnéng huì gěi qítā rén de shēnghuó dài lái gèng duō de bùtóng. Dàn huàshuō huílái, wǒ bù zhīdào. Wǒ shì wǒ jīntiān de rén, yīn wéi guòqù de suǒyǒu shíkè dōu sùzàole wǒ,“āndélǔ shuō, tā yǒu yīgè jǐsuǐ huīzhí yán de fùqīn.
“The truth for cancer patients is that we cling on to every bit of hope if possible because otherwise, there’s really nothing else to cling on to anymore.”
“癌症患者的真相是，如果可能的话，我们会坚持一切希望，否则，真的没有别的东西可以依附了。” “Áizhèng huànzhě de zhēnxiàng shì, rúguǒ kěnéng dehuà, wǒmen huì jiānchí yīqiè xīwàng, fǒuzé, zhēn de méiyǒu bié de dōngxī kěyǐ yīfùle.”
A Final Wish 最后的愿望 Zuìhòu de yuànwàng
His greatest wish now is to reconnect with people in his life, such as his primary and secondary school friends whom he has lost touch with.
他现在最大的愿望是重新与生活中的人们建立联系，比如他与他失去联系的中小学朋友。 Tā xiànzài zuìdà de yuànwàng shì chóngxīn yǔ shēnghuó zhōng de rénmen jiànlì liánxì, bǐrú tā yǔ tā shīqù liánxì de zhōng xiǎoxué péngyǒu.
When asked why he prioritizes his precious time with people he is not close to, Andrew said his heart is for them to come to know the peace that they can have through Christ.
当被问到为什么他将他宝贵的时间放在与他并不亲近的人的优先时间时，安德鲁说他的心是让他们了解他们可以通过基督得到的平安。 Dāng bèi wèn dào wèishéme tā jiāng tā bǎoguì de shíjiān fàng zài yǔ tā bìng bù qīnjìn de rén de yōuxiān shíjiān shí, āndélǔ shuō tā de xīn shì ràng tāmen liǎojiě tāmen kěyǐ tōngguò jīdū dédào de píng'ān.
“Whether they are busy working adults or battling their own problems, I want to share this peace that I have with them. So that when they come to the end of their lives, which may happen any time, they would know of a peace that money or toil or relationships or health or wealth cannot bring,” said Andrew.
“无论他们是忙于工作的成年人还是在与自己的问题作斗争，我都希望与他们分享这种和平。因此，当他们的生命即将结束，这可能发生在任何时候，他们会知道金钱或辛劳或关系或健康或财富无法带来的和平，“安德鲁说。 “Wúlùn tāmen shì mángyú gōngzuò de chéngnián rén háishì zài yǔ zìjǐ de wèntí zuò dòuzhēng, wǒ dū xīwàng yǔ tāmen fēnxiǎng zhè zhǒng hépíng. Yīncǐ, dāng tāmen de shēngmìng jíjiāng jiéshù, zhè kěnéng fāshēng zài rènhé shíhòu, tāmen huì zhīdào jīnqián huò xīnláo huò guānxì huò jiànkāng huò cáifù wúfǎ dài lái de hépíng,“āndélǔ shuō.
“I want them to not hear of me as just someone who died, but a person who is waiting to welcome them in heaven and who desires to see them again in heaven.”
“我希望他们不要只听到我死的人，而是一个等待在天堂欢迎他们并希望在天堂再次见到他们的人。” “Wǒ xīwàng tāmen bùyào zhǐ tīng dào wǒ sǐ de rén, ér shì yīgè děngdài zài tiāntáng huānyíng tāmen bìng xīwàng zài tiāntáng zàicì jiàn dào tāmen de rén.”
